The Journey
My Story
From the outside, I was fine. I played a lot of sport, spent weekends out drinking with friends, and tried to fit the version of life I thought I was supposed to live. On the inside, I was driven by insecurity, people-pleasing and a deep fear of not being enough, and most of what I did was about making sure nobody noticed.
Even from a young age, something didn’t feel right. By university it was harder to ignore. I struggled with anxiety, isolation and low self-worth, and I was scared to really express myself. I still came out with a 2:1 in Biochemistry, but inside I felt lost.
After university, it got worse. Day after day, I couldn’t get out of bed before midday. I was too scared of failure, and of commitment, to even apply for a job. I was going nowhere, waiting for something or someone to come and save me.
In 2020, I finally saw it. I’d been drifting. I had no ambition, I didn’t think for myself, and I’d outsourced almost every part of my life. Life was something that happened to me.
Around then I started listening to the Feel Better, Live More podcast, and something landed: I had far more agency than I’d ever admitted. I started with what I could control: food, my health, my body. Better habits, more energy, and taking responsibility for my thoughts and patterns. As I rebuilt my relationship with myself, the rest followed: my career, my finances, my confidence and my sense of direction.
Then, in late 2022, I broke my ankle.
It looked like a physical injury. It turned out to be the thing that stopped me running. The existential dread I’d been outrunning my whole life caught up with me, and I had to face it, to find meaning and a purpose worth living for. That led me into years of exploring health, psychology, philosophy, spirituality and embodiment.
What I eventually realised is that no amount of outside knowledge can replace knowing yourself. You can chase information, success and approval forever, but if your relationship with yourself is built on fear or unworthiness, it will keep shaping your life. The real work wasn’t fixing myself. It was reconnecting with who I was underneath the conditioning and the fear.
Today, I take full ownership of my health and my life. This work is built around one thing: helping you take ownership of yours, and use your gifts to build a life, and a living, that’s truly your own.
If any of this sounds familiar (the drifting, the waiting to be saved, the quiet sense that you’re capable of more), that’s where I started too. It’s also where the work begins.